Before you can even think of forgiving others you have to be willing to forgive yourself. You are loved unconditionally by me and by the divine but do you believe that of yourself? The past is over. Notice how you are behaving today and see if it is coming from a place of fear. This fear is most likely you trying to avoid the past, but it is over with. Kindly let it go and accept your inner apology to yourself. You know better now and there is nothing to repeat.